In the midst of this all, I run in place
I run to bark at the lazy whispers that holds me back from trying
I run to remember my errors, my faults, and all the evils that I’ve done
I run to talk again with her who’ve lost me…
Or did I lost her?
I run to chase her again, to forgive her for being imperfect
I run to breathe and take a last long time of introspection, to check what kind of person I’m becoming,
to understand if I am really growing, and still learning
or if my heart is still pure;
I’ll run and run in this place, until I’m ready to take off…
I hope that I’ll be alright soon.


100 Questions

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

โ€œ 3. I figured that if everyone else could smoke a cigarette without coughing, I could damn well too.” – Looking for Alaska, John Green

2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?

My ukelele

3) Before you started this survey, what were you doing?

Watching BTS’s recent Run episode on V app.

4) What is the last thing you watched on TV?

24 Oras

5) Without looking, guess what time it is.

9 pm?

6) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

9:32 pm.

7) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

Electric fan and my younger brother’s foot steps.

8) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

A while ago. We went somewhere and bought something.

9) Did you dream last night?


10) Do you remember your dreams?

Yes, right after I wake up, but as the day goes on, the memory of my dreams slips away. I don’t remember any now except for the extreme ones.

11) When did you last laugh?

A while ago.

12) Do you remember why / at what?

No. I laugh at everything.

13) What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Calendars and educational posters.

14) Seen anything weird lately?


15) What do you think of this quiz?

A good medium to reflect on things

16) What is the last film you saw?

Orange. It’s a good Japanese film. ๐Ÿ™‚

17) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

Anywhere, as long as it is with the people I love.

18) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Tickets, for movies, plays, extreme adventure, etc.

19) Tell me something about you that most people donโ€™t know.

I’m only 4″11 ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

20) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Eradicate wars.

21) Do you like to dance?

Yes, I just developed my appreciation to dance just recently (because of KPop tbh). I used to hate dancing so much when I was younger.

22) Would you ever consider living abroad?

Yes, but I would probably take my family or friends with me. I don’t want to live alone.

23) Does your name make any interesting anagrams?

An Alice G. (??) I can’t make any interesting ones.

24) Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

My mama.

25) What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

Spirited Away. It’s a Japanese animation film

26) Last time you swam in a pool?

January 2017. I can’t really remember the date.

27) Type of music you like most?

I love almost all kinds of music. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ Acoustic pop always gets me. But, recently, I’m into hiphop.

28) Type of music you dislike most?

Hard metal and emo punk. :< I used to like emo punk when I was younger though.

29) Are you listening to music right now?

Not at the moment.

30) What color is your bedroom carpet?

We don’t have a bedroom carpet ๐Ÿ˜‚

31) If you could change something about your house, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?

Everything. I would just transfer to another house with my family. It would be easier.

32) What was the last thing you bought?

๋žŒ์—ฐ noodles

33) Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?

Nooo. I’d like to try

34) Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?


35) Do you have a garden?


36) Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?

I do

37) What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?

โ€œIt’s too early.”

38) If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?

Jesus Christ

39) Who sent the last text message you received?

My mother.

40) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

Some music store. But, I don’t think I like the idea of owning a credit card.

41) What time is bed time?

Somewhere between 11:30am – 2:30am depending on the day and how tired I am.

42) Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

No. I’d like to attend one to feed my constantly aesthetic-starving soul.

43) How many tattoos do you have?

I don’t have any.

44) If you donโ€™t have any, have you ever thought of getting one?

Yes, but just simple designs on areas that are not often exposed.

45) What did you do for your last birthday?

It was a normal day. My mother prepared some extra food for that day. I like making my birthdays as normal days so I don’t really tell anyone.

46) Do you carry a donor card?

No. I used to but I can’t find it anymore.

47) Who was the last person you ate dinner with?

My family

48) Is the glass half empty or half full?

Half full

49) Whatโ€™s the farthest-away place youโ€™ve been?

Abra. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I want to travel farther though.

50) Whenโ€™s the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ve ever had home-grown tomatoes.

51) Have you ever won a trophy?

Yes, but it was a group trophy.

52) Are you a good cook?


53) Do you know how to pump your own gas?


54) If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?

Jesus Christ.

55) Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?


56) Do you touch-type?

I do.

57) Whatโ€™s under your bed?

Old things.

58) Do you believe in love at first sight?


59) Think fast, what do you like right now?


60) Where were you on Valentineโ€™s day?

At school

61) What time do you get up?

M – F : 6:30 am ; Weekends – 9/10 am

62) What was the name of your first pet?

Torxeus, Torxisse. They are white pigeons.

63) Who is the second to last person to call you?

Ivan (a friend)

64) Is there anything going on this weekend?

The usual ones. I haven’t been updated.

65) How are you feeling right now?

Uhm.. insecure? a little happy? ๐Ÿ™‚

66) What do you think about the most?

The future. It’s kind of unhealthy actually because I tend to overdo it. But I can’t help it

67) What time do you get up in the morning?

See Question 61.

68) If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?

Right after I won but I would only tell relatives and close friends

69) Who would you tell first?

My papa.

70) What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

Le Petit Poucet (a French film) It was last year and I watched it for free. I don’t really go to cinemas.

71) Do you sing in the shower?


72) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

See Question 40.

73) What do you do most when you are bored?

Practice instrments/learn guitar/ watch a variety show in a foreign language

74) What do you do for a living?

I’m still a student, but I work part-time as a teacher

75) Do you love your job?


76) What did you want to be when you grew up?

To be an elementary teacher ๐Ÿ™‚ And a writer. Or a business owner. Or some profession related to music.

77) If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?

Music producer.

78) Which came first the chicken or the egg?


79) How many keys on your key ring?

I don’t have a key ring

80) Where would you retire to?

Somewhere nice and peaceful.

81) What kind of car do you drive?

I don’t own a car.

82) What are your best physical features?

My eyes and my dimples

83) What are your best characteristics?

I like taking care of people. ๐Ÿ™‚ And I’m not boastful

84) If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?

Somewhere in Seoul, South Korea

85) What kind of books do you like to read?

I like non-fiction these days, but I used to like YA a lot.

86) Where would you want to retire to?

See Question 80.

87) What is your favorite time of the day?

my waking hours

88) Where did you grow up?

Quezon City, Philippines

89) How far away from your birthplace do you live now?

I’m still here.

90)What are you reading now?

These questions.

91) Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Both ๐Ÿ™‚ What is sleep?

92) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?


93) Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?

Yes? Is this something some people cannot do?

94) Do you have pets?

Nooo. My parents don’t allow me.

95) How many rings before you answer the phone?

About 3? My phone is only on vibrate so I cant really hear unless it’s close to me.

96) What is your best childhood memory?

Hanging out with many people who are no longer in my life.

97) What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?

Loool I’m still young HAHAH but I did worked as a canteen crew for 1 week and right now, I’m working part time as a tutor.

98) Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?

I just bought my first pizza for my family from the money that I actually worked for ๐Ÿ˜

99) What is most important in life?

Kindness and love

100) What Inspires You?


* My answers turned out to be monotonous ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I’m sorry if this bored you even more. I’m writing this at a time when I have no energy to write but I write anyways because I challanged myself to do this last week. Thank you for reading! ๊ฐ€์ž! โ™ฅ


You tiptoe further and further away from the sunshine of my palms,
eager to see the shadows of the moon again, not because you miss its quiet enigma
but because you thought that the sun is shining too brightly that it hurts
your fingertips
your chest
and the soles of your feet;
you became so used to it that you thought you can no longer feel how much it actually hurts.

I want to tie a rope around your hands and yolk it with mine,
but your flighty soul is wanting to run from the sunshine, envying instead the sadness of the shadows.

I hope that I speak stronger than the dark half of your soul, so that his screams would be meager whispers,
and our pleas would come to you clearer.

5 Beloved BIGBANG (๋น…๋ฑ…) Songs

If anyone would ask me why I am learning Hangul, it is because of this wonderful band that I love so much — BIGBANG. I want to understand their songs, and sing along with them whenever their music plays. I’m not much of a fan yet when they came here in the Philippines, although I already knew some of their songs (Last Dance, Lies, Haru Haru, Fantastic Baby, etc.). Years after they came here, I inadvertenly plunged my way deep into the VIP fandom, discovered a lot of beautiful BIGBANG music, and then, slowly, I became a VIP myself.

It’s not very hard to love them. The members (G-Dragon, Taeyang, Daesung, T.O.P., Seungri) are actually complex and interesting personalities. I discovered this in variety shows, interviews, TV Shows, and radio shows where they appeared. They always give deep insights on things. They knew when to get serious and when to mess around. Also, they are all very hard-working and professional. They put so much effort, efficiency and passion into their work (composing, dancing, singing).

But, what I admire the most about their group is their strong brotherhood that I really, really envy.

There’s still so much to say about them, but I’m not writing those here, because I’d like to invite you to this fandom, and discover it yourself, slowly, just as how I experienced it. Slow is the best, trust me. It’s not enough to read about how awesome they are or how good their music is. Watch them, listen to their music, and you’ll know. ๐Ÿ’•

I’d like to share you 5 of the most beloved BIGBANG songs by VIPs (based on what I’ve read on forums, polls, etc.), in no particular order.

(Here’s the playlist of the songs used in this post, just in case you want to listen while reading.)

1. Let’s Not Fall in Love (์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ง์•„์š”)


Notable lyrics:

โ—€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ง์•„์š” ์•„์ง์€ ์ž˜ ๋ชจ๋ฅด์ž–์•„์š”
์‚ฌ์‹ค ์กฐ๊ธˆ์€ ๋‘๋ ค์šด ๊ฑฐ์•ผ
๊ทธ๋Œ€ ๋ฏธ์•ˆํ•ด์š”
์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์•ฝ์†ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ง์•„์š” ๋‚ด์ผ์€ ๋˜ ๋ชจ๋ฅด์ž–์•„์š”
ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ด ๋ง ๋งŒ์€ ์ง„์‹ฌ์ด์•ผ
๊ทธ๋Œ€ ์ข‹์•„ํ•ด์š”

English translation:

Letโ€™s not fall in love, we donโ€™t know each other very well yet
Actually, Iโ€™m a little scared,
Iโ€™m sorry
Letโ€™s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say
I like you

โ—€ ๋‚  ๊ฐ€์ง€๋ ค ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ง์•„์š”
๊ทธ์ € ์ด๋Œ€๋กœ ์กฐ๊ธˆ๋งŒ ์žˆ์–ด์š”
๊ฐˆ์ˆ˜๋ก ๋” ๋งˆ์Œ ์•„ํŒŒ์ง€๊ฒŒ ์™œ?

English translation:

Donโ€™t try to have me
Letโ€™s just stay like this
Youโ€™re making it more painful, why?

2. If You


Notable lyrics:

โ—€๋ฉ€์–ด์ง€๋Š” ๊ทธ ๋’ท๋ชจ์Šต๋งŒ์„ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ณด๋‹ค
์ž‘์€ ์ ์ด ๋˜์–ด ์‚ฌ๋ผ์ง„๋‹ค
์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด ์ง€๋‚˜๋ฉด ๋˜ ๋ฌด๋ŽŒ์งˆ๊นŒ
์˜› ์ƒ๊ฐ์ด ๋‚˜ย ๋‹ˆ ์ƒ๊ฐ์ด ๋‚˜

์•„์ง ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋Šฆ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค๋ฉด
์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋‹ค์‹œ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜๋Š” ์—†์„๊นŒ
๋„ˆ๋„ ๋‚˜์™€ ๊ฐ™์ด ํž˜๋“ค๋‹ค๋ฉด
์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์กฐ๊ธˆ ์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜๋Š” ์—†์„๊นŒ
์žˆ์„ ๋•Œ ์ž˜ํ•  ๊ฑธ ๊ทธ๋žฌ์–ด

English translation:

Iโ€™m looking at her, getting farther away
She becomes a small dot and then disappears
Will this go away after time passes?
I remember the old times.ย I remember you

If you, If you
If itโ€™s not too late
Canโ€™t we get back together?
If you,ย  If you
If youโ€™re struggling like I am,

Canโ€™t we make things a little easier?
I shouldโ€™ve treated you better when I had you

3. Bang Bang Bang (๋ฑ… ๋ฑ… ๋ฑ…)


Notable lyrics:

โ—€๋‚œ ๋ถˆ์„ ์งˆ๋Ÿฌย ๋„ค ์‹ฌ์žฅ์„ ํƒœ์›Œ
๋„ ๋ฏธ์น˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด
B.I.G Yea we bang like this ๋ชจ๋‘ ๋‹ค ๊ฐ™์ด

์ด ๋งž์€ ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ

๋นต์•ผ ๋นต์•ผ ๋นต์•ผ
๋นต์•ผ ๋นต์•ผ ๋นต์•ผ

English translation:

Iโ€™ll set this place on fire, to burn up your heart
I wanna make you go crazy
B.I.G Yea we bang like this, everyone together

Like youโ€™ve been shot

Bang bang bang
Bang bang bang

4. Last Dance


Notable lyrics: (I can honestly quote the whole song. It’s just so beautiful.)

โ—€์˜์›ํ•  ์ค„ ์•Œ์•˜๋˜ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๋„ ์ €๋ฌผ๊ณ 

์ด์   ๊ทธ ํ”ํ•œ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋งˆ์ € ๋– ๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋„ค์š”
๋‚˜์ด๊ฐ€ ๋“ค์–ด์„œ ๋‚˜
์–ด๋ฅธ์ด ๋˜๋‚˜ ๋ด์š”
์™œ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ถˆ์•ˆํ• ๊นŒ

์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์˜ค๋Š˜๋„ ๊ณผ๊ฑฐ์— ๋จธ๋ฌผ๊ณ 
์„ธ์ƒ์€ ๋‚˜ ์—†์ด๋„ ์ž˜ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ€๋„ค์š”
์•„์ง์€ ์–ด๋ ค์„œ ๋‚˜
์ฒ ์ด ์•ˆ ๋“œ๋‚˜ ๋ด์š”
์™œ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ฐ”๋ณด ๊ฐ™์„๊นŒ

์•„๋ฌด๊ฒƒ๋„ ์—†์ด
๊ทธ์ € ํ–‰๋ณตํ•ดํ•˜๋˜ ๋•Œ๊ฐ€
์—Š๊ทธ์ œ ๊ฐ™์€๋ฐ
๊ทธ๋ž˜ ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋ฉ€๋ฆฌ ์™€๋ฒ„๋ ธ์–ด ๋‚œ
๊ธฐ์–ต์ด ์•ˆ ๋‚˜
๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒŒ ์ฒ˜์Œ์ด๋ผ
์„œํˆด๊ณ  ์„ค๋ ˆ์ด๊ธฐ๋งŒ ํ•ด
๊ทธ ์‹œ์ ˆ ๊ธฐ์–ต๋“ค์ด
์•„์ง๋„ ๊ฟˆ๋งŒ ๊ฐ™์€๋ฐ ๋‚œ
์ง€๊ธˆ ์–ด๋””๋กœ ๊ฐ€๋Š”์ง€

๋‚˜๋Š” ์ด ๋…ธ๋ž  ๋ถ€๋ฅด๋ฉฐ
๋„ˆ์—๊ฒŒ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐˆ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ
์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์› ๋˜ ๊ทธ๋Œˆ
๋‹ค์‹œ ๋ณผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
๋„ˆ์™€ ์ด ๋…ธ๋ž  ๋“ค์œผ๋ฉฐ
๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ์ถค์„ ์ถœ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ
์ด ์ˆœ๊ฐ„์„ ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•ด ์–ธ์ œ๊นŒ์ง€๋ผ๋„
Just one last dance

English translation:

Love that I thought would last forever has set

Now even my friends are leaving
Beacuse Iโ€™m getting older
I guess Iโ€™m becoming an adult
Why am I so anxious?

People linger in the past again today
The world goes around just fine even without me
Iโ€™m still young
Iโ€™m still immature
Why am I such a fool?

Times that I was so happy
Even without anything
It seems like yesterday
But I came too far
I donโ€™t remember it anymore
Because everything was for the first time
I was clumsy and filled with butterflies
Memories of those times
Are still like a dream
But where am I going right now

As I sing this song
I will go back to you
If only I could see the beautiful you again
I will listen to this song with you
And have a last dance
Remember this moment
Until always
Just one last dance

5. Haru Haru (ํ•˜๋ฃจํ•˜๋ฃจ)


Notable lyrics:

โ—€๋Œ์•„๋ณด์ง€ ๋ง๊ณ  ๋– ๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋ผ ๋˜ ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์ง€๋ง๊ณ  ์‚ด์•„๊ฐ€๋ผ
๋„ˆ๋ฅผ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ–ˆ๊ธฐ์— ํ›„ํšŒ ์—†๊ธฐ์— ์ข‹์•˜๋˜ ๊ธฐ์–ต๋งŒ ๊ฐ€์ ธ๊ฐ€๋ผ
๊ทธ๋Ÿญ์ €๋Ÿญ ์ฐธ์•„ ๋ณผ๋งŒ ํ•ด ๊ทธ๋Ÿญ์ €๋Ÿญ ๊ฒฌ๋ŽŒ ๋‚ผ๋งŒ ํ•ด
๋„Œ ๊ทธ๋Ÿด์ˆ˜๋ก ํ–‰๋ณตํ•ด์•ผ ๋ผ ํ•˜๋ฃจํ•˜๋ฃจ ๋ฌด๋ŽŒ์ ธ ๊ฐ€๋„ค

English Translation:

Donโ€™t look back and leave
Donโ€™t find me again and just live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, so only take the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand it in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
Day by day it fades away


Here are another 4 songs from their sub-units/ solos that you should also check out:

1. Eyes, Nose, Lips – Taeyang ( ํƒœ์–‘)

2. Good Boy – ํƒœ์–‘ x G.D

3. That XX – G- ๋“œ๋ž˜๊ณค

4. Darling – ํƒœ์–‘